Here we go again!

I went to the doctor this week, and asked her about my weight and if she had any suggestions for effective weight loss.  I explained that I had gained rather a lot of weight after getting married seven years ago because of my combined worse diet and lack of exercise.  After talking to her for a few minutes, she said that she would be happy to do a chemical panel on my blood to see if thyroid might be a problem, but it was most likely that I was eating too many calories and not getting enough exercise.  She suggested that I start Weight Watchers again.  I explained that I was frustrated with the program, since I wasn't seeing a lot of progress and didn't enjoy tracking foods and avoiding the foods I love the most.  She was very nice in responding to my concerns, but the basic message was, "Grow up."

I tend to think like a toddler about food--I want it and I want it now!--and this has been a problem for me since I was given free reign to eat anything I wanted when I got married. I know what it takes to eat healthily, but I was never happy to make that sacrifice in the short term to make a difference in the long term.  It doesn't make sense, really.  I do it elsewhere in my life...I'm happy to give up my time to invest in friendships, I have less money to live on now to prepare for Matthew's and my future, but food was off limits. I don't understand myself sometimes...okay, often.

So, per doctor advice, I am again on weight watchers.  I have done two days, and scarfed down a candy bar yesterday.  I know I have extra points to use for just these things, but I felt so guilty eating it.  This isn't healthy, I told myself. But it tasted good, and I was obsessing over not being able to have it.  I need to find some alternatives to chocolate and try to keep it out of the house.  Maybe some cocoa roasted almonds?

Since starting again a couple of days ago, I've realized the Weight Watchers recipes are so much better than I remember.  Everything I have made is tasty, and it's been fairly easy to track the good health checks and the meals I've eaten.  If I can get over the self-flagellation when I mess up and realize that it's okay to make mistakes, I can just pick back up when I fall to make this work for me for a lifetime.

Soooo, weekly weigh-ins are on Mondays, and since I really can't afford to pay membership fees and pay a weekly meeting fee, you guys are my meetings.  Coming up Monday June 17th: a weigh in, a few tasty recipes, and most likely more moaning and groaning.  Hope you're up for it!